I am dreaming of houses again.
Last night another maze of rooms led me to
each of you occupying lives shining, meticulous or
in stages of brave disarray, voices streaming
with passion in opalescent air:
you quivered with life, it’s many purposes.
I was like a ghost or an essence of motherhood
that oversees but is unseen slipping about,
with tender sighs and wide open eyes,
with hands and spirit readied.
It was not a sad dream
but dream houses are never
what is expected or imagined,
ceilings unfinished with endless floors above,
doors opened to odd places I still must wander
(if there are doors, at all),
and then sometimes a stranger
takes ownership or tells me:
It was never empty and not for sale.
I have searched (more than I care to think)
for a house that can attend well to us all,
one that is made of peace and old wood,
surprising, fecund gardens and music,
forgiveness and effervescence,
and windows that open to everything,
even aquamarine drape of sky.
But now you have your own homes.
I have mine. And it is some days not tall,
or deep or wide enough to fully wrap around
this festival of family with its lightning strikes of loss,
pulling closer then separating, each needing
respite from the blood deep sweetness and
searing pain of love that does not end.
But we call out and answer with a chorus
of true voices, as before, never mind the house.
2 thoughts on “Friday’s Poem: House Dreaming”
I have such dreams too
I imagine we all do; houses mean so many things to people…thanks, Derrick.